"When you get those rare moments of clarity, those flashes when the universe makes sense, you try desperately to hold on to them. They are the life boats for the darker times, when the vastness of it all, the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive. So the question becomes, or should have been all a long... What would you do if you knew you only had one day, or one week, or one month to live. What life boat would you grab on to? What secret would you tell? What band would you see? What person would you declare your love to? What wish would you fulfill? What exotic locale would you fly to for coffee? What book would you write?"

Thursday, December 31, 2009

New Year’s Resolutions

Hey Everyone (that reads this) J :

These last couple of months of 2009, particularly the last month (December) has been pretty much rockbottom so far of my life. Nothing has gone right…I am in a constant state of looking for something that is out of reach. I don't even know what I'm looking for, which makes it harder to find. But this subject will be in a next blog. I'll get to that later.

First I want to talk about my resolutions. (Not in any order..just how they come to mind)

  1. I want to Learn Chinese!! I actually want to learn every language (at least 10) and Chinese has always fascinated me, so good place to start. I know a lot of Spanish and a tid bit of French, but I'm ready to take on China. And Sign Language is a very close second.
  2. I need to continue my weight loss regimen, so I guess this is and isn't a "resolution". Its been a rocky road in terms of losing weight but at least it's a road at all and best I can do with the new year is to keep trying. I need to be 20 pounds less by next year!
  3. I need to keep better control of my finances…big time. Its not that I spend a lot of money, but the money I do spend I spend without keeping track of and then I get my bills…and I just feel out of control. I don't know where any of it possibly went. But I guess that's a typical part of life…but I have to try. It will never be perfect, but I need some sort of system…any ideas?
  4. I need to stop biting my stupid fingernails!!!!! Enough said.
  5. I need to do a heck of a lot better in my studies. I haven't been good enough. Have to keep trying. Med surg is coming this spring, and it will be the hardest class yet. I have to put every ounce of effort I possibly have into this course.
  6. I need to focus on being happier with living in my skin. I have been very on edge lately and I can't place why. But that's another blog, like I said.
  7. I want to read more!! And paint more!! (Summer activities).
  8. I need to keep my room clean as I can.
  9. I need to keep my car as clean as I can!! It makes me sad to drive it.
  10. I need to focus on de-stressing more, because this has been ridiculous! J

Wish me luck J <3

~ A Writer in a Nurse's Body

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