"When you get those rare moments of clarity, those flashes when the universe makes sense, you try desperately to hold on to them. They are the life boats for the darker times, when the vastness of it all, the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive. So the question becomes, or should have been all a long... What would you do if you knew you only had one day, or one week, or one month to live. What life boat would you grab on to? What secret would you tell? What band would you see? What person would you declare your love to? What wish would you fulfill? What exotic locale would you fly to for coffee? What book would you write?"
Monday, May 2, 2011
I just found out I'll be landing in Iceland first as a connecting flight. I wish you could leave the airport and go see Iceland! But I'll have to observe via the windows. But I am so excited!
Last night I woke up in the middle of the night and I was thinking about time. It finally sunk in that my best friend's trip to Europe leaves in.....8 days!? And I'll be leaving in 21! During my delusional sleeping half-awake state, I began freaking out. I was like- oh my god. I can't do this. I can't fly alone! I can't find my tour guide! What If I can't find my tour guide? What if my plane crashes! OH MY GOD I'M GOING TO EUROPE.
When I booked the trip earlier this year, it was like.....yeah, I'm going to Europe. I was SUPER excited, but it didn't really feel real. Heck, we had paid the whole sum and it still didn't feel real. I mean, Its something I have wanted for my entire life. Well, as long as I've known what Europe was. Some of my more fortunate friends have gotten to go with their families as children, or as teenagers, or have gone with school trips, sports teams, with a boyfriend/girlfriend, or with a similar tour group as mine....and I just kept thinking, I want to go! But I never thought I actually could.
I don't think it will feel real until my first step out of the airport. It will be surreal. I have no idea what to expect! super excited.