"When you get those rare moments of clarity, those flashes when the universe makes sense, you try desperately to hold on to them. They are the life boats for the darker times, when the vastness of it all, the incomprehensible nature of life is completely illusive. So the question becomes, or should have been all a long... What would you do if you knew you only had one day, or one week, or one month to live. What life boat would you grab on to? What secret would you tell? What band would you see? What person would you declare your love to? What wish would you fulfill? What exotic locale would you fly to for coffee? What book would you write?"

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Just Not Into It

I think I decided I was done studying like a week ago.

I'm going to be mad at myself tomorrow.

Oh, I've tried to study. I really have. But whats the point in reading information that I know my brain is just glazing over? I know when I'm taking in information and when I'm just reading the page. I'm wasting my time if I'm going to stare at the page. And then I just fall asleep. I keep falling asleep every single time I try and look over this information. Part of me feels like I know the information, and therefore it is boring to me to have to read it over again. But the other part of me is afraid that I don't know the information as well as I thought, and therefore am too intimidated at the daunting task of reviewing everything, so my brain just shuts off without even trying. I know I am going to be so mad at myself tomorrow for not trying hard enough. All I had to do was put in 100%, for one more day, and I gave it maybe 30 %.

Best i can do now is try my best...make educated guesses. *sigh*.

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